I was almost not who I was in the night. Or maybe it was the day. I'm different now, but I don't know why. I was the same person I was the night before, and the night before that. When the sun was up, I felt like the same person. I even ate the same breakfast and dinner each day, so I know I like the same foods. But something has changed, and I don't know why.
"Did something happen?"
Not that I'm aware of. Not in the last few days, at least.
"When did you notice it?"
This morning at the breakfast table. I try not to eat at the table in the morning anymore because I don't want to start my day off like this.
"What did you eat?"
I told you. The same thing I had for breakfast the day before, and the day before that. I ate two slices of toast and half an avocado. My roommate ate the other half.
"What did it feel like, this thing that changed?"
It felt like.... It felt like panic rising in my chest. Those butterflies everyone talks about- the nervous ones, I think- they started in my stomach. Really bad. It felt like I wanted to get up and run.
"Why did you bite yourself?"
Because I couldn't run.
"What was making you feel like this?"
I don't know."When did you first notice it?"